“But before we choose to follow God’s will, a crisis must develop in our lives. This happens because we tend to be unresponsive to God’s gentler nudges. He brings us to the place where He asks us to be our utmost for Him and we begin to debate. He then providentially produces a crisis where we have to decide—for or against. That moment becomes a great crossroads in our lives. If a crisis has come to you on any front, surrender your will to Jesus absolutely and irrevocably.” Oswald Chambers
As I read these words this morning, I was taken back to that season in my own life, to the crisis, the daily tug-of-war matches, the countless excuses and the desperate bargaining and deals. Here, God, I’ve given you all this…but let’s find a way to compromise in this area over here.
I’m still in awe at how patient God was with me during this time in my life. It’s as if He just kept repeating to me “Eileen, I love you too much to do it that way.” Like a parent who stands their ground while their stubborn toddler has a meltdown on the living room floor, God waited for me through it all.
That point of surrender really is the most crucial crossroads we will ever arrive at in our lives. And when we get there, when all the excuses have been exhausted, we know, with complete certainty, that the only choice we have is to grab on to Him and hold on as if our very life depended on it. Because, in reality, it does.
For me, I knew I had hit the point of surrender when my heart finally arrived at that moment of understanding… “Lord, this choice, this is a matter of life or death.” And I want to live!
My words this morning are for anyone who is currently in a tug-of-war match with God. I’m not going to tell you to let go of the rope. I’m not going to tell you to surrender. Oh, how I wish my words had the power to make you do that! But, I know from my own experience that no one can stand at the crossroads for you. Your heart must reach that decision for itself. Your heart must recognize its desperate need for healing.
But what I will tell you is that the God holding the other end of that rope, the One who continues to pursue you, isn’t going anywhere. He’s that parent, standing His ground, and telling you over and over “I love you too much to do it that way”