Breaking Dams and Much Needed Reminders

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Sometimes crying is a lot like laughing.  What I mean is that when you start, sometimes it’s hard to stop…just like when something cracks you up and each time you think about it you can’t help but laugh. Tears tend to show up the same way. Both laughter and tears are cleansing and healing.

That’s basically where the similarities stop, though.  I’d much rather have a case of the giggles than a case of tears. I’m sure you feel the same way too. It’s much easier to walk around in public with unrestrained laughter than it is with a tear stained face and splotchy forehead.

I’ve spent a good chunk of time crying this week. I can’t put my finger on one reason. It’s a combination of things out of my control and, I think, the dam just decided to break this week. Sometimes, I would even start crying for one reason and end of up crying about something entirely different.  But, for whatever reason, those salty droplets needed to come out.

I’ve also had some much needed moments of laughter this week. Laughing is an incredible gift and I can’t imagine going through life without these moments of unexpected beauty.

Last night, at work, I got to talk and joke with one volunteer. I was so thankful for her “lightness” and when I arrived home later I started thinking about her again. I made the mistake of  thinking how she was probably about the same age my mom would have been if she were still alive. Did I mention that was a mistake?  Tears.  And then, just like all week, the tears took me on a journey.  What triggered the cry wasn’t truly what I ended up crying about.

This morning, as I think and write about crying, it probably wouldn’t surprise you if I told you I’m crying again.  Pathetic, emotional, middle-aged woman 😉

In my quiet time, I listened to This I Know by Crowder again.  This child needs the reminder over and over to go back to what I know.

Maybe you need that reminder today too.

Up on the mountain where You took me by the hand
Taught me to dance again, this I know
Up on the mountain where You took this heart of stone
Put life back in these bones, this I know

Take me up to where I was
When I never wanted more than You
Lift me up to feel Your touch
It wouldn’t be that much for You

This I know, this I know
This I know, this I know

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