Category Archives: discontent

If only…

It hasn’t taken long for my son to discover that 1st grade is more work than kindergarten. For the last several mornings, he has pulled every excuse out of his backpack as to why he does not want to go to school.

Five days in a row is too many days.
Can’t I go to a different school?
Can’t I be home schooled?
There is not enough play time.
I never get to play what I want to play.
I already know it all.
I miss you while I am at school.
I wish every day was Saturday. (I tend to agree with this one)
My classroom is badly decorated.

I attempted to explain to him that if he were at a different school or if he were being home-schooled, school would still be “work”. The phrase “the grass is always greener on the other side” came up in my conversations with him and I told him what that meant. I don’t think he found my argument very persuasive and is still convinced that the grass some place else would certainly be greener.

It amazes me how early this thinking begins. If my circumstances were different…then I would be happier. Then I would be content.

If only I had more money…
If only I was taller…
If only I was thinner….
If only I drove a different car…
If only I lived some place different…

For the last six years, I have had a verse taped to my bathroom mirror. I plan on keeping it there until I am able to “live” it…

“For I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength. ” (Philippians 4: 11-13)

…I’ve decided that the verse will probably stay on my bathroom mirror until I die. Some days, I live it out fairly well. Other days, not so much.

This morning I was listening to a few people on the radio discuss some extremely devastating trials in their life and how God worked in the midst of these tragedies. I was reminded, once again, that God is so much bigger than our circumstances. Only He has the ability to bring peace and joy and contentment despite what we might be going through. I’ve watched Him do it in my life over and over.

I was thinking that when God walks through our circumstances with us…the grass really is greener on the other side. Not because our location or our circumstances have necessarily changed but simply because He is there with us. This thought encourages me.

Armloads of Life

I should be prepared for this by now. So often, when I come down off the mountaintop of a great weekend or a great vacation, I find myself somewhat depressed. I have no real good reason to be. It’s almost like all those day to day potential worries that I temporarily chose not to think about come crashing down on me. Some things I can control. Some things I can’t.

I have lived with myself long enough to know that, if I’m not careful, I tend to take something that really is not a big problem and turn it into a skyscraper. That’s when I know I have to step back, take a deep breath and regroup. I talk myself down off the ledge of chaos, and worry, and rash decisions and back into the arms of wisdom.

I read Proverbs 8 this morning. It was exactly what I needed to hear. If I seek Wisdom, I will find it. This is a promise I can cling to when I am tempted to worry about all of life’s details…huge life-changing details and piddly “why-in-the-world-am-I worrying-about-this” details.


My benefits are worth more than a big salary, even a very big salary;
the returns on me exceed any imaginable bonus.
You can find me on Righteous Road—that’s where I walk—
at the intersection of Justice Avenue,
Handing out life to those who love me,
filling their arms with life—armloads of life! (Proverbs 8: 19-21 MSG)