I should be prepared for this by now. So often, when I come down off the mountaintop of a great weekend or a great vacation, I find myself somewhat depressed. I have no real good reason to be. It’s almost like all those day to day potential worries that I temporarily chose not to think about come crashing down on me. Some things I can control. Some things I can’t.
I have lived with myself long enough to know that, if I’m not careful, I tend to take something that really is not a big problem and turn it into a skyscraper. That’s when I know I have to step back, take a deep breath and regroup. I talk myself down off the ledge of chaos, and worry, and rash decisions and back into the arms of wisdom.
I read Proverbs 8 this morning. It was exactly what I needed to hear. If I seek Wisdom, I will find it. This is a promise I can cling to when I am tempted to worry about all of life’s details…huge life-changing details and piddly “why-in-the-world-am-I worrying-about-this” details.
My benefits are worth more than a big salary, even a very big salary; the returns on me exceed any imaginable bonus. You can find me on Righteous Road—that’s where I walk— at the intersection of Justice Avenue, Handing out life to those who love me, filling their arms with life—armloads of life! (Proverbs 8: 19-21 MSG)
Okay, so I watched a video earlier this week that a friend of mine posted on Facebook. I keep thinking about it. It was one of the most powerful testimonies I have ever heard. So for that reason, I’ve posted it here.
Zac Smith stepped into eternity and went home to be with Jesus on Sunday,May 16, 2010.
After I watched it, the song Blessed Be Your Name by Matt Redman came to mind. “You give and take away and still I choose to say, blessed be Your Name.” God knows what He is doing, despite our lack of understanding. My mom’s birthday is coming up on May 23rd. She would have been 74 years old this year. I try to picture my mom at this age and I have a hard time doing it. It’s been 19 years since I lost my mom to breast cancer. A few years ago, I came to a point where I actually began to see the “good” that came from that tragedy. God has been able to use the death of my mom to teach me things about Him and things about life. This is a precious gift and I find myself thanking him for it all the time. His plan for our lives is more than our little human minds can even comprehend. But one thing I know with complete certainty is that God is good even when we are confronted with challenges in this life that are difficult to understand. I love this verse and for some reason it came to mind while I was writing this…
“This foolish plan of God is wiser than the wisest of human plans, and God’s weakness is stronger than the greatest of human strength.” 1 Corinthians 1:25 (NLT)