Healing Words and Nooses

I am having a hard time placing all the thoughts racing through my mind in a coherent and smooth flowing sequence. So, I will start at the beginning. This morning, I headed down to the oceanfront with my son and husband to enjoy this Father’s Day weekend.

As I road along, a memory from ten years ago came to mind. A decade ago, I was slowly coming out of a long season of disobedience, I had been on a road marked with one poor choice after another. I was nearing the bottom of my pit and wanting desperately to make healthier choices during the next chapter of my life. I had recently recommitted my life to Christ and had found a great church. But, just because Christ was back in my life didn’t mean old issues would suddenly disappear.

I was still feeling stuck and defeated. I seemed to be struggling with the same issue over and over. It was then I decided to make an appointment to see a counselor. I needed someone to perhaps shed some light on why I kept struggling. I didn’t know how to move forward. I didn’t know if I could move forward. It worked out, that I only visited this counselor three or four times before he identified my struggle and recommended another option for me. But, I will never forget the words this counselor said to me during our last session together.

I believe in you.

When I thought about this memory earlier today it brought tears to my eyes. And now, as I write these words, my lip is quivering and the tears are flowing.

I believe in you.

Those are some powerful words. When your situation feels hopeless and you feel as if you will never make progress, those words are oxygen to your crushed and broken spirit.

At that moment, I needed to know that I wasn’t a lost cause. I needed to know that someone out there believed that I could get better. My failures would not define me or destroy me.

These were the thoughts filling my mind as I rode down to the beach this morning. Now, fast forward to this evening. I grabbed my ipod and decided to take my dog for a walk around the neighborhood. At one point, “The Cave” by Mumford & Sons started to play. I fell in love with this song the moment I heard it several months ago. I’ve never been able to put my finger on why I love it so much…not until tonight, anyway.

Here are some of my favorite parts…

It’s empty in the valley of your heart
The sun, it rises slowly as you walk
Away from all the fears
And all the faults you’ve left behind

The harvest left no food for you to eat
You cannibal, you meat-eater, you see
But I have seen the same
I know the shame in your defeat

But I will hold on hope
And I won’t let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I’ll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again…

So come out of your cave walking on your hands
And see the world hanging upside down
You can understand dependence
When you know the maker’s land


Do you see it? This song, among many other messages, speaks of hope. “I won’t let you choke on the noose around your neck.” That line, right there, might be my favorite line. Hope, offered to you by another, helps to loosen the noose that seems to be squeezing the life out of you.

I believe in you.

Those words spoken to me ten years ago were so encouraging. I had someone in my corner. I had someone who didn’t think I was beyond help or healing. Those words loosened the noose around my neck.

Listen to the whole song HERE

2 thoughts on “Healing Words and Nooses

  1. My daily walk in His grace!

    Hi Eileen. The power of words. That little sentence has set you on the path you are on. God is amazing and gracious giving us just what we need as we need it.
    God bless
    Tracy

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