Hope and a Desperate Heart

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This happened again last night, another song on repeat. I could hear the melody loud and clear but I couldn’t hear the words. I played the song this morning so I could remind my heart of the words.

“There’s hope in front of me
There’s a light, I still see it
There’s a hand still holding me
Even when I don’t believe it”

Thank you, Lord.

Just moments before searching for the words, I prayed a short prayer. It’s one I find myself praying on a fairly regular basis.  “Lord, I do believe…help my unbelief!”  It’s the same words a desperate father who was seeking healing for his demon possessed son once cried out to Jesus. (Mark 9:24) Over the years, I’ve come to greatly admire the faith, honesty and desperation in this dad’s words. He articulated the reservations that so many of us feel at times as we journey the road of faith.  Belief doesn’t completely wipe away our unbelief.  We must constantly confront, acknowledge, and wrestle with the doubts…doubts that seem to come with being humans with finite understanding. We forget that we must use His eyes to see beyond our circumstances.

Yesterday on Facebook, I referenced a portion of Hebrews 6:19 that came to mind as I was revisiting an older blog post “And we have this hope as an anchor for the soul…”

Here’s the verse in context:

“People swear by someone greater than themselves, and the oath confirms what is said and puts an end to all argument. Because God wanted to make the unchanging nature of his purpose very clear to the heirs of what was promised, he confirmed it with an oath. God did this so that, by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have fled to take hold of the hope set before us may be greatly encouraged. We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain, where our forerunner, Jesus, has entered on our behalf. He has become a high priest forever, in the order of Melchizedek.”

This morning I am, once again, grateful that this hope shines brighter than the darkness and goes deeper than our doubts.  I am thankful that God accepts our small acts of faith and trust and showers down love and beauty that is so much bigger than our offerings.

Here’s today’s song if you want to take a listen.  “Hope In Front of Me”

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