I Am Full

It’s Friday! It’s time for another link up with The Gypsy Mama for Five Minute Friday, “a time when we just write for 5 minutes not worrying whether everything is just right.” If you would like to join in the fun CLICK HERE.

The topic today is FULL.

My heart is happy today. I am en route to my first writer’s conference. I took the long route to get here. It’s taken me nearly 20 years. I graduated with an English degree and then stopped writing. The idea of putting words down on paper scared me. What if they weren’t just right? Writing would force me to confront my imperfections and flaws. This was hard to swallow for a recovering perfectionist who had already made a lifetime of mistakes. What if I fail again?

A couple years ago, there was a part of me that felt empty and dead. There was something missing in my life. Then, I heard this song at church and I knew what I needed to do. I needed to face my fear. The moment I did, an amazing thing happened, that empty place inside me disappeared.

My writing isn’t perfect. It never will be. And that’s okay. The joy I receive from writing and putting words down outweighs all the mistakes I make.

I am full.

10 thoughts on “I Am Full

  1. Jenifer

    This is one of my favorite songs. I never want to just go through the motions and check things off the "Christian to do list." I want to be FULL. Great word! Have a wonderful time at She Speaks. I know God has great things for you!

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  2. Beck Gambill

    Great post! Enjoy the conference. I have a love hate relationship with writing. I've been a communicator my whole life but the risk and deep heart work of it can at times overwhelm me. I've found I can't keep myself from writing and God's taking me on a journey I don't want to miss!

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  3. Phather Phil Malmstrom

    Wonderful post Eileen! Well, I'm certainly glad you overcame that fear and share your writing with us; it always Blesses me when I read it. 🙂

    Have a wonderful time at the conference!

    Have a Blessed Weekend!

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  4. Belva Rae Staples

    I hope you have a blast at your first writer's conference!! This is a great post. I think we could be sisters!

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  5. Kelli

    Hope you have a wonderful time! I know I picked up several useful tools when I went to She Speaks last year… you will love it! Your brain will be fried but you'll love it! Beautiful post!!

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  6. Lisa

    That song had a similar impact on me. When I heard it, I realized that I was just going through the motions and I needed to change. I was empty, but God has made me full. Have a great weekend, Eileen!

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  7. Eileen

    Thanks, guys! Can't wait to learn some new things and then come home to unpack everything I hear and see!!

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  8. Jen

    I so needed to read this. The importance of facing fears…in spite of imperfect…a valuable lesson. Thank you! ~ Jen

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