My Brief Career as a Flag Twirler


Last night I had this weird dream.  For some reason, I was back in high school doing undercover detective type work. The only part of the dream I remember is being out on the football field as an undercover flag twirler.  I was trying really hard to blend in with the other flag twirlers but come to find out I stink at flag twirling!

After the band stopped playing, the flag twirling instructor approached me.  As delicately as she could, she told me that I wasn’t very good at the art of twirling a flag.  Sigh.  I wanted to tell her the truth.  That’s because I’m undercover. I don’t belong here!  I belong in the woodwinds section.  I’m not a flag twirler!

As I thought more about this dream, the more I realized how often in my life I used to feel like a phony because I was trying to be someone I wasn’t.

Right before I went to bed last night, I was reading a little bit more in Pete Wilson’s new book Let Hope In.  I stopped at the following quote, tweeted it, and then went to bed thinking about it:

“Living for acceptance and love is slavery; living from acceptance and love is freedom”…seek to trust rather than please.

Pete was actually referring to the mistake we often make of trying to earn our love and acceptance into the family of God instead of trusting and believing that we are who God says we are. We don’t need to try to earn His love and acceptance.

“If our primary motive is pleasing God, we never please him enough, and we never learn to trust.  That’s because life on this road is all about striving, my effort, my ability to make something happen.  But if our primary motive is trusting God, we find out that he is incredibly pleased with us.  So pleasing God is actually a byproduct of trusting God.”  ~ Pete Wilson

This quote reminds me of Proverbs 3: 5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.  In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.”

In my dream last night one of the things I really stunk at doing during my brief career as a flag twirler was walking in step with the other twirlers.  I couldn’t keep my line straight.  I was always a step or two ahead or behind.   I think that’s kind of how it is with God when we “lean on our own understandings”  We become stinky flag twirlers who are never in step and never twirling at the right time.  We are always lagging behind or too far ahead.

So, here are few takeaways from my weird dream:

  • Stop trying so hard to be someone you are not.
  • If you belong in the woodwind section and not the flag section then take your spot and play your heart out!
  • Trust and believe that God created you and loves you for who you are.  Stop trying to earn that love and approval.

Are there any areas in your life where you feel like you are striving in your own power?

Perhaps it’s time to raise the flag of surrender and trust Him fully.


9 thoughts on “My Brief Career as a Flag Twirler

  1. David Rupert

    That was quite a dream. Most of my dreams I’m getting walked on by the marching band…so to be leading the band is much better! I like what you said about pleasing God. We are human beings and not human doings.

  2. Arny

    Ok. I have an idea…you should totally try to flag twirl…and video it and post it!!!! LOL!!!!

    Good take away from your dreams…

    We have to be true to what God has called us…pure worship…that is what i’m taking away from my band doing our first full length project…

    1. Eileen Post author

      Arny, if I ever feel compelled to twirl…I will let you know! 🙂 Yes! Be true to what God has called us to.

  3. Amy P Boyd

    I rarely dream or at least I don’t normally remember them. However, When I do remember them it is usually because God is trying to teach me something (or I ate to much spicy food). I loved the quote from the book and may have to read that one.

  4. Jenifer

    First off, girl you have dreams as weird as I do! 😉 Second, love this! As a blogger, for awhile I struggled with trying to keep up with other bloggers. Make my blog look like theirs, write like them, and so on. Now I am doing it for GOD and NO one else!

    1. Eileen Post author

      I think that’s key Jenifer. For Him. It is easy to get sucked into the misconception that our journey needs to look like someone elses. But it doesn’t. We are unique and God uses us in unique ways!


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