I think I’m turning a significant corner on the whole people approval issue I sometimes have. The older I get the quicker I’ve begun to recognize this unhealthy need whenever it rears its ugly head. Nowadays, when I catch glimpses of this ugly creature peeking out into the light, I try to address it before it becomes a nuisance. It’s kind of like that Whac-a-Mole game. This insecurity of mine needs to be smacked back down into submission…immediately.
I find it a tad humorous that the temptation to give into my approval seeking addiction happened again this morning while I was on Amazon purchasing a new book to read. The book is called Love Idol, by Jennifer Dukes Lee. It’s been on my list to read for some time now. It’s a book about letting go of our need for approval.
After making your purchases, Amazon gives you this option to share your book choices with the entire world. This morning, I almost hit the tweet button about my decision to purchase Love Idol. However, before my finger was able to make the choice, something prompted me to pause. It was that convicting voice whispering those words I will sometimes hear right before I decide to share something on social media, “Eileen, who are you trying to impress?”
“Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ” Galatians 1:10
Whenever this conviction arises in my heart, this tends to be my Whac-a-Mole go to Bible verse. It’s the verse I turn to whenever I can feel myself falling into that dismal and unfulfilling place of needing to be seen or known by you all.
This verse tends to shine more corrective light on my intentions than any other verse I know. It stops me in my tracks and, at that moment, I have a choice on whether or not to change directions.
The mallet came out this morning. I whacked down that urge to seek your approval. But, isn’t it funny that I’m now sharing it with you here on my little blog? But, I hope you see it as a confession and not a need for approval.
Every one of us struggles with some sort of insecurity. Every single one of us. I occasionally must beat mine down with the Word of God (and, of course, my handy-dandy imaginary mallet.)
Do you ever struggle with this need to be known?
Do you have a Whac-a-Mole go to Bible verse?