It was 48 degrees and dark when I started my run this morning. Dark and cold are not my favorite running conditions. I would much prefer 70 and sunny. But sometimes runs must begin in the dark. I’ve learned over the years, if you keep going, eventually you run into the light.
It’s been a rough few months in my family. As many of you know my dad still can’t use the left side of his body after a medium size stroke in May. The doctors have recently told him that the chances of getting any more mobility back in his arm and in his leg are slim.
Two weeks ago my ex-sister-in-law overdosed and died. She struggled for years and years with bi-polar disorder and addictions. She left behind my two incredible nephews. And, although she failed in so many ways to be the mother they desperately wanted,needed, and deserved, she was still their mother and my heart continues to ache for their loss.
And just yesterday, while out to dinner with some friends, my brother calls to inform me that our grandma had died. She had been slipping away for a couple of days. I was expecting the call.
This morning as I started my run in the dark, the sun slowly came up behind the trees, a song began playing on my iPod, and I cried.
Thank you, Lord, for the reminder that no matter how dark some days might start…the light does shine again.
You light a lamp for me.
The Lord, my God, lights up my darkness. (Ps 18:28)
Eileen, accept our condolence. We are super humbled to see how God’s grace is playing out in your life. May God strengthen and uphold your family… and I dare say, blow you away in the coming days and weeks that follow. We are praying for you.
Thanks, Joseph. Blow us away Lord!
Ah Eileen. Thank you for taking the time to put it in writing. Peace that passes all understanding – my prayer for you.
Love this peace. Thank you, Chris.
God is so good to show us a glimpse of Him just when we need it most. Praying for you and your family Eileen as ya’ll walk the path set before you…
Yes He is, Allison. Glimpses are all around us too!
Knew about your dad but not the other. You have my prayers and thoughts. Praying over the coming days your spirit will also run from darkness to light. Good song also.
Thank you, Bill. I appreciate it.
Dear sister- I am so sorry. I weep with you. I pray Gods comfort will strengthen you today. Then I pray the same for tomorrow. Then the day after that. I love you and walk with you…
Thank you,Tracy.
Love YA! ‘nuf said.
That’s ‘nuf! Thank you friend!
Beautiful. Thanks for sharing from the ache of your heart.
Thanks, Janice. Sometimes it’s healing just to write it down.
Eileen-
So sorry to hear this news, my heart aches for you and your family. What a beautiful song and reminder that even in our darkness moments- we can run to the light. All darkness is dispelled in His glorious countenance. I pray that you will feel the hope and peace of His glorious light dwelling in and upon you today. Thank you again for so beautifully sharing your heart.