One of my favorite days of the year is coming up this week. The day after Thanksgiving.
It’s not because I can go shopping and get great deals. (Lord knows I don’t particularly like shopping, just ask my good friend, Michelle.) No, I like the day after Thanksgiving because it’s the anniversary of the day I sat, exhausted on my couch and tearfully uttered these words: “I give up, Lord.” In that moment, my life changed forever.
As I sit here this morning thinking about the peace that poured down over me immediately following that moment, I am filled again with gratitude. Months earlier, the Lord had challenged me to commit to trusting Him wholeheartedly in my struggle with alcohol. What would trusting Him with all my heart involve?
- It would mean believing He was indeed bigger than the battle in front of me and inside me.
- It would mean I would no longer hide because healing is only found out in the Light.
- It would mean running back to Him no matter how many times I failed…running back, falling down again and again at the foot of the cross and saying…”You, Lord, are my only hope. Change my heart!”
I honestly believe, that morning, He poured out enough of His peace to last me an entire life time. Now, please don’t think I’m saying that I no longer have seasons of unrest or struggles or pain. I certainly do. But there was something about that peace. It hit me by the bucketful that morning. And my heart was forever changed.
And since then, there’s this part of me that can’t shut up about all of it.
It’s as if living water rained down on me that morning and that water contained some sort of Truth serum.
Tell the world what I can do, Eileen. Tell them how I came to set the captive free. Tell them how I came to give joy and life to the fullest. Tell them. Over and over and over.
Dear Lord, thank you for being true to your word. Thank you for 14 years of freedom.
“I have told you these things so that in Me you may have peace. You will have suffering in this world. Be courageous! I have conquered the world.” John 16:33 HCSB
“If anyone thirsts, let him come to me and drink. Rivers of living water will brim and spill out of the depths of anyone who believes in me this way, just as the Scripture says.” John 7:37 Message