You Have Doubts? That’s Okay

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I was out on my run last night and thinking about the controversy over Michael Gungor’s admission that he isn’t able to take the Genesis account literal. Apparently, he’s held this view for a long time now and people are just now hearing about it.

As I thought more about it, I could feel a blog post being written. Oh, Lord, I thought. I don’t want to write about this. People tend to hold strong convictions and get riled up when folks admit they have doubts or simply can’t accept when all of Scripture isn’t being read and interpreted a certain way. 

Yet, here I go writing about it. Can I tell you the truth? When I read certain sections of Scripture I have doubts too. If I was a cartoon character and I was being portrayed reading Scripture, there would often be this bubble over my head with big ? marks in the center of it as I read several portions of Scripture.

However, the longer I journey along, the more I’ve come to believe something about Jesus. I believe that He’s worth pursuing and chasing after despite my doubts…or maybe I should say, because of my doubts. I’ve come to believe that knowing Him, following Him, listening to Him, trusting in Him, is the direction I need to point my heart.  Not just when I’m feeling like “Peter the Rock” but also when I’m feeling like “Thomas the Doubter.”  Oh, and by the way, Peter the Rock got it wrong and crumbled a few times too.

There’s a great line in one of my favorite All Sons and Daughters song “Oh, How I Need You” that does a good job at putting into words this faith journey I am on.

Lord I find You in the seeking
Lord I find You in the doubt
And to know You is to love You
And to know so little else
I need You
Oh how I need You

I hate that people judge and condemn others who can’t (at this point in their journey and maybe never) interpret the Bible literally. Even after these folks who doubt have said that they do believe that “all scripture is God-breathed” and that they do believe Jesus is the Son of God and ultimately their Savior.

Rather than get angry over someones lack of faith or their admission to having doubts, I want to celebrate when someone chooses to keep on keeping on despite not having all the answers, despite their questions.

That to me shows incredible faith.

I think about all the people in the Bible who struggled with doubt, yet didn’t walk away. Instead, they simply chose to keep learning from their teacher, Jesus. I also think of the man who brought his demon possessed son to Jesus to be healed and humbly cried out: “I do believe! Help my unbelief!”

Geez, isn’t that all of us at some point along the road?

I didn’t know how to end this post, so I thought I would share one of my favorite Gungor songs.

I’ve tried to stand my ground
I’ve tried to understand
but I can’t seem to find my faith again

like water on the sand
or grasping at the wind
I keep on falling short

please be my strength
please be my strenth
I don’t have anymore
I don’t have anymore

I’m looking for a place
Where I can plant my faith
one thing I know for sure

I cannot create it
and I cannot sustain it
It’s Your love that’s keeping me

Please be my strength…

at my final breath
I hope that I can say
I’ve fought the good fight of faith

I pray your glory shine
in this doubting heart of mine
And all would know that You

You are my strength
You are my strength
You and You alone

Keep bringin me back home

2 thoughts on “You Have Doubts? That’s Okay

  1. Bill (cycelguy)

    I can’t speak about Gungor’s thoughts because I did not know of them until just now. I do know and can speak to the idea you have placed on the table: doubt. Is it okay? My answer in a nutshell: YES! I have always said God is bigger than our doubts and big enough to handle our doubts. he is not intimidated by them one iota. So go ahead and ask away. But like you said, let them always take you to Jesus.

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    1. Eileen Post author

      Exactly, Bill. I think that’s where change and growth start… by asking Him questions and continuing to hold his hand even though we don’t fully understand.

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