A Life Long Journey

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For years, I didn’t give the Holy Spirit much thought.  It was a portion of belief and faith I would occasionally hear mentioned in a Sunday sermon or I would  come across in Scripture.  However, it’s only been in the last decade or so where this portion of the Trinity has become more tangible to me.

As I sit here this morning enjoying the first fire of the season in our fireplace, a quote from a recent Sunday message comes to mind:  “You really don’t know what you believe until you go through a fire.”  I would also add that, personally, I had a hard time learning to listen to the Spirit until I was in the midst of the flames. The fire woke me up.

When I was a little girl I remember loving a song by Leslie Phillips called “By My Spirit”

“Not by might, not by power, but by my Spirit says the Lord,” were some of the lyrics.

At 13 years old, I don’t think I realized that those lyrics were actual scripture from Zechariah 4:6. All I knew was I loved the song and whenever I sung the song, it would stir something inside me.

Sometimes, I wonder how different my life would have been had I really grasped the concept of the Holy Spirit.  Now, I’m not saying I have a complete understanding today, not even close. But, today,  I do have a better understanding than I did then. Today, I know that my faith and my ability to follow Christ hinges on the Holy Spirit. Years ago, I didn’t understand how crucial listening to the leading of the Holy Spirit really was in this faith journey. The Holy Spirit was there. I knew that. I had accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. But, learning how to follow the Spirit’s lead?  That would take me decades to learn. In fact, it’s a life long journey.

I’ve had to learn that while accepting Christ is a one time decision, following Him on a daily basis, is a moment by moment decision that can only be accomplished by the assistance of the Spirit.

Whenever I find myself in the Book of John and read, again, what Jesus has to say about the Holy Spirit, the same question inevitably comes to mind.  “Lord, how did I miss this 30 years ago?”  (John 14 & 16) Why did it take me so long to grasp the importance of this? 

This is everything.  This is our lifeline. This is our oxygen. Our faith, and the journey we must take, is not sustainable if we fail to recognize this one small HUGE detail.

When I share my journey with others, I often explain it by saying that, for years, I made the mistake of turning down the volume on God over and over.  He is always talking to us through His Spirit and every step of the way we have a choice as to whether or not we will be receptive to that voice.

Today,  I want to make the choice to turn that knob up a notch.  On second thought, I  want to crank it up so loud that it drowns out all the other noise I am tempted to hear and listen to.

I want you to make the same decision today too.

One beautiful thing about His Spirit is that it is only capable of singing Truth.  Those are the only words it knows.  And that truth will lead us down some pretty amazing paths.

Thought I would share Leslie Phillips old song.  Brace yourself it is very 1980s. 🙂

6 thoughts on “A Life Long Journey

  1. Mike

    Thank you for the post, Eileen…it brought back a flood of memories. Leslie Phillips was my favorite singer back in the ’80s and Not By Might my favorite song, as well. I met her on a number of occasions before/after concerts, once at a college near the university I attended, and once at a book store. The first time my college roommate and I had driven to Nashville early one afternoon and were hanging around outside the venue where she was supposed to perform that evening, having concluded that she had to get inside and we would be there when she arrived. We scoping the outside of the arena when a green Honda Accord pulled up and she got out of the back seat. We talked for a bit, took some photos, and even asked her to join us for pizza after the concert, which she kindly declined explaining that her best friend lived in Nashville and had just had a baby and her presence was required there after the show. But I will never forget that she actually made us feel she had rather gone out for pizza with us. Anyway, I still listen to her music from the ’80s, though I will resist telling you more Leslie Phillips encounter stories. She’s now changed her name to Sam Phillips, was married to record producer T-Bone Burnett for a while, and is still making records, though they are a far cry from the ones she made thirty years ago. Thank you for encouraging us to “turn that knob up a notch.” Not by might, not by power…

    1. Eileen Post author

      What a cool story, Mike! And now that you mention it, I DO remember she changed her name to Sam. I only remember a few of her songs back in the day. I was also into Sheila Walsh. Do you remember her? New Wave Christian. I had several of her cassettes! Now she writes Bible Studies 🙂

      1. Mike

        I remember her as well. Saw her a couple of times in concert but don’t think I ever met her. She always reminded me of a Christian Sheena Easton 🙂 Though I don’t listen to ’80s music much any more, it was really a heyday for contemporary Christian music. Cindy and I used to go to concerts every chance we got when we were dating. One of our favorites was Mylon LeFevre and Broken Heart. We saw them quite a few times. Once we drove through the snow to Cleveland, TN to see Joe English. We also saw The Imperials, Leon Patillo, Amy Grant, Sandi Patti, Twila Paris, Michael W. Smith, Dallas Holm, Steve Camp, Petra, David Meece, Russ Taff, Second Chapter of Acts (they were Cindy’s favorite), Rich Mullins, Randy Stonehill, Bryan Duncan, Kathy Troccoli, Keith Green, and the list just goes on haha. I remember when Keith Green died I drove to Cindy’s neighborhood to tell her. She was babysitting down the street. Anyway, thanks, again, for your post.

        1. Eileen Post author

          Yes, she reminded me of Sheena Easton too! Wow…that’s a lot of concerts. I think I only remember about 1/2 of those folks. Glad the post resonated with you. Let us know if you are ever in the area. We would love to catch up again.

  2. Bill (cycelguy)

    I remember that song even though Leslie was not my favorite, nor really my cup of tea. But the power of the lyrics is still there. if we would only remember this it would make a huge difference in our lives as Christ-followers.

    1. Eileen Post author

      Yes, I think it was definitely the lyrics that resonated with me. That’s usually the case for me though!


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