A Place I Never Want to Live Again

With years of keeping secrets safe
Wondering if I could change
‘Cause when you’re hiding all alone
Your heart can turn into a stone
And that’s not the way I want to go

So I walk out of the darkness and into the light
From fear of shame into the hope of life
Mercy called my name and made a way to fly
Out of the darkness and into the light” —Marvelous Light

This Ellie Holcomb song played again on my run the other day and it took me back.

Oh how I hate the fear that keeps us stuck in the dark. I hate how the dark convinces us that the only option we have is to remain in the dark. I hate how it convinces us the darkness is safe.

So we settle for the dark.

We hide, run, lie, justify, rationalize, numb, escape.

The dark:  I spent nearly a decade of my life in that place; it was anything but safe. It wasn’t just a place I visited from time to time. I set up permanent residence there. I am all too familiar with the consequences… with the damage it causes and the pain it inflicts.

“If you think you have no choice but do what you’ve always done, then you’ve already made a serious error” — Seth Godin

The dark will tell us there is no turning back, or that somehow it’s all our fault and we deserve this.
The dark will tell us it’s all their fault and not ours.
The dark will tell us it’s not that bad.
The dark will tell us they need to change not me.
The dark will tell us well…at least I’m not as bad as that person over there.
The dark will tell us if they can do it, then I can do it too.

The dark will convince us that settling is freedom when really it’s a prison.

Jesus told us that He came in order to give life to the fullest, an abundant life!

Whenever our hearts are convinced to listen to the dark, we settle for something short of abundance, something short of freedom.

“I am the light of the world. Anyone who follows me will never walk in the darkness but will have the light of life.”  —John 8:12

One thought on “A Place I Never Want to Live Again

  1. Becky Poston

    So much easier to stay in the dark even though it is bad and hurtful. It takes courage and faith to move into the light. However, it is the only way to joy, peace, and growth in God.


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