Falling Through Our Fears

“Fall toward me. You might just fall right through the ground you fear and discover heaven is underneath.” Paul Pastor

I read this quote last week in a devotional book called The Listening Day, Volume 2 by Paul Pastor. I love it.  As a recovering perfectionist, these words remind me of my own journey and how it was in those seasons of serious failing and falling down when I experienced the love of God in the most profound, personal, and life changing ways. It wasn’t the end…at least not the end I had imagined. Instead, it was the beginning; a beautiful chaotic beginning. Like author, Rick Lawerence so perfectly puts it, “Jesus will set off an earthquake in our soul if it will spring loose our prison door.” Falling down and losing control brought me to where I needed to be all along.

Falling through our fears and finding the kingdom of God.

I love that thought. Discovering this beauty can only be found after we hit the bottom of ourselves and then instead of the journey ending in hopelessness, we encounter and are brought to our knees by a love that we don’t deserve and could never earn.

What kind of love pursues even after we turn our backs and walk away? What kind of loves sees us at our lowest and our ugliest and still chases after us without giving the decision a second thought?  What kind of love sees the barriers we’ve put up and the lies we’ve believed and still battles with the same intensity for our hearts?

This morning I read the following quote in this great article Why Christian Theology Needs Former Atheists

“Not everyone becomes a Christian by going forward at an evangelistic altar call in a church or camp. God sometimes chases people down in very surprising ways.”-  John Woodbridge

I love that we have a Savior who refuses to take our initial “no” as the final answer.

This song has been playing on repeat in my heart all morning long.

“Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God
Oh, it chases me down, fights ’til I’m found, leaves the ninety-nine…

There’s no shadow You won’t light up
Mountain You won’t climb up
Coming after me
There’s no wall You won’t kick down
Lie You won’t tear down
Coming after me”



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