Finding God in the Why

004Taking Daisy to Visit My Dad

My dad called right before I climbed into bed last night. He had more sad news to share with me. His 13-year-old Dalmatian passed away over the weekend. My dad has been separated from Daisy since last May when he suffered a stroke.  After months of rehabilitation, my dad is still bed-ridden and unable to fully care for himself. He has been living in an assisted living home for several months now.

My brother would periodically bring Daisy to visit him. When I was able go home last Fall and visit, I brought her over once to visit him too. Daisy was not a typical dog. I always thought she was more like a cat trapped in a dog’s body. She lacked the “cuddle gene.” I happen to love the cuddle gene that most canines possess. Yet, despite her lack of affection, I know my dad loved her.

Daisy was a stray puppy who, after being hit by a car and left for dead with a broken leg, had been rescued by a shop owner who witnessed the accident. My dad, a man with a soft spot for stray and abused animals, heard about this pup’s rough beginnings and adopted her.

I know my dad will miss her.

My dad is certainly going through a Job-like season of loss. He has lost the use of the left side of his body. He has lost his ability to go home and live independently, (something he wants more than anything else). He lost his 92-year-old mom in October. Since then, two other close friends of his have passed away too.

Last night, I was reminded of how often the Lord chooses to use pain to bring us to our knees. I’m not saying He always causes the heaps of bad stuff to rain down on us, but He certainly finds a way to use those low and hopeless seasons in our life to bring us to a deeper dependence on Him.

It’s often right at the point when all we can do is throw our empty hands up in the air and cry, “Why?!” when we discover how big God is. We discover, with complete certainty, a Savior who loves us deeply and promises to hold onto us through it all.

It’s baffling to think about, isn’t it?  Faith encounters don’t make sense to someone on the outside looking in. They only makes sense when, in the midst of our own cries to understand, we discover God standing right there with us. Arms outstretched.

Has God shown up for you like this?  I would love to hear about His faithfulness in your life.

17 thoughts on “Finding God in the Why

  1. David Rupert

    I had a wife leave both my parents die within 14 months. But when my dog died at the end of that period, I had just about enough. “it’s just a stupid dog” I said to myself. But the pain was real along with all the other loss. Prayers for you dad, that he finds some rest in his heart.

    1. Eileen Post author

      Yes, the pain we feel for loss of our pets is real. Thank you for sharing a little of your journey, David. I appreciate that.

  2. Shari @ Leaving A Legacy

    I am so sorry for your Dad’s loss. This was a beautiful post. This phrase is so true,,,”It’s often right at the point when all we can do is throw our empty hands up in the air and cry, “Why?!” when we discover how big God is.” We serve a mighty God who will carry us through all of life’s storms! I am so thankful for that.

  3. Kristin

    Oh my yes, HE has shown up for me like this…would have to write a book to share!
    I’m sorry for all your dad’s losses. Praying it does bring him into a closer communion with the Father. Will pray for his recovery from the stroke too and peace in his heart.
    Beautifully written as always 🙂

    1. Eileen Post author

      Thanks, Kristin. Unfortunately, I think most of humanity could write a book. Loss is one pain that hits each of us.

  4. Teresa

    I am so sorry for your father’s loss. Our dogs become part of the family and the pain of losing them is acute.

    God has definitely been showing up for me over the last year. Not that he didn’t before, but when I broke 15 months ago, God picked me up and has been working in me in ways I never imagined. He is amazing. He is wonderful.

  5. Chris

    I am so sorry about Daisy. Sigh. Will be praying for comfort for your Dad and for you, friend. I know it is hard to be so far away.

  6. Joseph Iregbu

    “…the Lord chooses to use pain to bring us to our knees.”
    I love that line. For me, that’s personally true. And sorry to read about your dad’s loss.
    Thanks for being true with your experiences, Elieen.

  7. Stephen Haggerty

    It’s hard to think about God like this. But I agree with you, and know that in His power he can choose to work in a way that defies my logic, but is still ultimately good. Thankful for His goodness in every situation and season.

  8. Maria I. Morgan

    So sorry to hear your Dad’s dog passed away. Pets are definitely part of the family. Hoping your Dad realizes that God is right there with him, “Arms outstretched,” as you so beautifully put it! God bless you Eileen!


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