I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you with my loving eye on you. Psalm 32:8
The above verse came to mind this morning after I read these words…”Learn to laugh at yourself more freely. Don’t take yourself or your circumstances so seriously. Relax and know that I am God with you. When you desire my will above all else, life becomes much less threatening.” (June 17, Jesus Calling)
Umm…sometimes I wonder if there’s a hidden camera inside my head and heart. How else could I be sitting on my couch at 5:30am and reading the reminder that I was so desperately needing to read today? 😉 Now…if I could just remember to apply it to my life and my circumstances that would be great!
It’s not just big things in life that threaten my peace, it’s the little day-to-day unknowns that tend to rattle it too. I can become incredibly anxious over things that really don’t “matter” that much. Ever since I was a little girl, I’ve struggled with this lopsided anxiety. I have a special knack (you might even call it my super power) at freaking out over things that really aren’t freak-out worthy.
And, you might be thinking: Freak-out worthy? But, Eileen, you shouldn’t be freaking out at all.
I know. Tell me about it.
I tend to remember this about mid-way through the freak out and, that’s when I hear His voice calmly talking me back down from my freak out ledge, I take a deep breath and suddenly remember there was no reason for me to be standing on that ledge in the first place.
Sometimes this thought runs through my mind: Lord, I wish I could at least learn to keep my freak out tendencies nicely contained to “acceptable” freak-out worthy moments. Wouldn’t that be progress in the right direction?
Did you notice the word acceptable? Acceptable? By whose standards, Eileen?
Darn it, Lord, there you go again.
Reacting and making choices while focusing exclusively on my circumstances, will always take me away from the direction I should be going. When I focus on the problem rather than who is standing with me in the midst of the problem, that’s when I veer off course. Every single time.
Today, I need to remember to stay clear of the freak out ledge. There’s no need to even go near it. Rather than dangling from that all too familiar place, there’s a better choice I can make today. I can cling to Truth. I’ll leave that Truth here in case you need to remember it too.
I am with you
I will instruct you
I will teach you
I will counsel you