“Search me, know me, try me and see
Every worthless affection hidden in me
All I’m asking for
Is that You’d cleanse me, Lord
Create in me a heart that’s clean
Conquer the power of secret shame
Come wash away the guilty stain
Of all my sin
Clothe me in robes of righteousness
Cover my nakedness with grace
All of my life before You now
I humbly bring” ~Jonah 33
These song lyrics came to mind this morning. I had not heard or listened to it in years so I looked it up on YouTube again this morning.
I think one of the reasons I thought about the song again was because yesterday I was having a conversation with a few other ladies at work about how we tend to deal with our weaknesses. Weaknesses are not typically the things we like to celebrate. Weaknesses tend to remind us of the ways we have fallen short or areas where we need additional help or guidance.
Yet the one truth I’ve learned over the years is that making the choice to get to know our own areas of weakness and acknowledging our weaknesses is one of the smartest decisions we can make in life.
For years, I worked hard at trying to cover up my weaknesses and that road led to destruction and shame. When I finally became willing to bring my weaknesses out into the light, I discovered that Light was the weapon I desperately needed in order to live in victory despite all the weaknesses in me.
Here’s the beautiful truth: Our weaknesses can be transformed and used for His glory when we become willing to acknowledge and surrender them to the One who specializes in redeeming everything and everyone. In His hands, a weakness can become a strength. How cool is that?
Yesterday, I shared with the ladies at work that, nowadays, I know the beauty of living life where I am quick to admit and reveal my weaknesses to others. That’s where I find freedom. That’s where I find room to breathe. If I err in life I would much rather err by over acknowledging and admitting my weaknesses than err by attempting to cover them up or hiding them. Because now I know that the former leads to glory and the latter leads to destruction.
The song lyrics above always remind me of Psalm 51 when King David humbly cries out to God for mercy and healing after committing adultery with Bathsheba. David was fully aware of where hiding would lead him. So instead, he chose to acknowledge and find freedom. “The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and contrite heart.” (v 17)
Broke things are weak things and weak things know how desperately they need a strong God fighting on their behalf.