…”continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling.”
I thought about those words from Philippians this morning immediately after thinking about a question Jesus once asked Peter “But what about you…who do you say I am?” (Matt 16:15)
Although I get distracted more often than I like to admit, those two ideas are ones that should take priority in my every day life. How I live and move and breathe and the choices I make throughout my day should hinge on my answer. When my eyes open in the morning and I am given another opportunity to journey along life’s path, I need to think about that question again. I need to think about it as if Jesus is beside me and we are conversing over our morning cup of coffee.
But, Eileen, what about you, who do you say I am?
At church last week, I was part of a small group where we shared pieces of our journey with one another. One of the things I told the group was that I’ve come to know Jesus as both my friend and my redeemer. He has walked with me through both rotten times and happy times.
Sometimes I’ve been a good friend back to Him. I’ve listened to Him. I’ve stood up for Him. I’ve been completely honest with Him and shared the deepest parts of my heart with Him.
Sometimes I’ve been a horrible friend. I’ve stood Him up on many occasions. I’ve held back from Him. I’ve even done what I like to call “pulled a Peter” where I’ve denied Him. I’ve denied Him with my words, with my actions, and my lack of faith.
Sometimes, I’ve gotten our relationship right.
Other times, I’ve gotten it way wrong.
Yet, though it all, there is one thing I know for certain, He saved me. He redeemed my life from the pit. He rescued me and brought me out into a spacious place. He did that.
So, to go back to the first words I typed this morning. I will “continue to work out my salvation with fear and trembling.” This I know I must do. I already know what it’s like to let go and to choose to not even try to work it out. And, I refuse to go down that path again. I know where it leads.
When I have a question….I want to run to Him for answers. When I experience pain and disappointment…I want to run to Him where I know I will find abundant peace.
Today, I want the first goal in our relationship to be this: I want to be willing to show up trusting that my Redeemer is strong enough and faithful enough to do the rest.