Without going into too much detail, I haven’t been feeling good for awhile now. I hit my breaking point yesterday and let me just say it wasn’t very pretty. I was a mess. It was a day when I seemed to be taking numerous steps backwards. Days like yesterday humble me. I am still very capable of acting like a tired toddler who is in desperate need of a time-out. I wasn’t feeling good but still… I wish I could have not felt good in a more sophisticated manner. I spent most of the afternoon grumbling at the Lord. What the heck is going on?
Quite often when I am not feeling well, I will think about people in life who have chronic long term health issues. I have come to have a deep admiration for people who have learned to cling to God in the midst of terrible pain. They seem to have a steadfast faith despite Job-like difficulties. If yesterday was a Job 101 test…I failed miserably. I feel like such a wimp sometimes when I am faced with sickness.
I am glad that today was a new day. I am thankful that God is patient with me. I am also quite thankful that I don’t have one of those reality television shows where the outside world follows me around all day. Yesterday, would have been a very bad day for that. 🙂
Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. (Lamentations 3:22-23)