I do my writing on a small laptop. Sometimes while tapping away on my tiny device, I feel like I resemble the female version of Mr. Incredible disproportionately hunched over his office desk. Several months ago, my husband bought me a large
64 inch, 36 inch, 20 inch monitor to hook up to my laptop. Okay, so I am not sure of the exact size. I do know it’s a much bigger monitor than I am used to using. I have tried, unsuccessfully, to establish a meaningful relationship with my new monitor. Recently, I had to have the “it’s not you it’s me” conversation with it.
I prefer to write hidden away in a corner somewhere. Even when I take my laptop out to a coffee shop, I try to find a seat where the least amount of eyes can see me and my monitor. For the last couple of years, I’ve been given the task of writing on the mission team blog while down in the Dominican Republic. The computer we used at the mission guest house is in the large central gathering room and every night I was forced to write blog posts about our adventures with a room full of people present. The horror! Periodically, one of my team members would wander over and sit down next to me as I was typing. I would freeze up like a deer in headlights. And, as gently as I could, I would say…”um…could you please…um…go away”.
When I write, I like to be alone. With the big monitor my husband so lovingly bought me, I feel as if the whole world can see what I am writing. I don’t like that. I know this stems from being an insecure writer who is petrified of her words being seen before she decides to press the post button.
I’m curious now. Do you struggle with being okay with others prematurely seeing what you are creating?
I can’t be the only quirky, insecure, creative, can I?
Linking up with Jeff Goins who is discussing creative space on his blog today. Please take a moment to read his great thoughts on the subject The Most Important Part of the Creative Life.