no more tears

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Last night when I got home from work I mentioned to my family that I might be turning into a weepy, cry at the drop of a hat, middle-aged woman.

“Oh no” was my husband’s reply.

“You do cry a lot” was my son’s reply.

Neither asked me to expand on my comment…I think they were too afraid I might start crying. ūüėČ

A¬†couple of weeks ago, I cried while watching the new animated kid’s movie Inside Out and last week I cried when my son and I watched McFarland USA, a “feel good” story about how a group of disadvantaged kids became state championship runners.

Note to self: ¬†Feel good movies will always make me feel like crying…but in a good way.

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Yesterday, I shared on Facebook that it was the anniversary of my mom’s death. It’s been 24 years. I shared the precious moment of being by her side the hours before she died. Over the years, that memory has become a gift. It¬†has, thankfully,¬†provided¬†more hope and comfort to me than sorrow. ¬†I love how God does that, how He can take a¬†past pain and use it to bring us reassurance as we journey¬†on. His ways of transforming and redeeming our grief¬†into something beautiful will never ever grow old to me.

I’ve shared this with you before, but I tend to become emotional¬†when I hear about someone losing a parent. ¬†There’s a part of me that aches tremendously for the family who must walk down that road. I know there’s no escaping this pain. I know there¬†comes a time when we all go through it. ¬†Yesterday, I was brought to tears when I read an email message¬†about a family at my church whose mom was in their final hours here on earth. ¬†I don’t know the family. I’ve never even met the family and yet¬†when I¬†read the news,¬†that subtle, underlying ache of loss we carry with us for the rest of our days was triggered and the tears came out.

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On the drive home from work I told the Lord that I am looking forward to the day when death is no longer a part of life. I cling to the¬†fact that on that day…our Healer¬†will make good on His promise.

“He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. Death will no longer exist; grief, crying, and pain will exist no longer, because the previous things have passed away.” Rev 21:4

6 thoughts on “no more tears

    1. Eileen Post author

      I know we have this one loss in common, Bill. In fact, I think one of the first blog posts I ever read of yours was a beautiful tribute you wrote about your mom.

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    1. Eileen Post author

      Thank you for the encouragement, Alfred. Not sure I see it as a strength but it beats trying to hold it all in and pretending I have it all together!

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  1. Jon Stolpe

    I think tears can be a healthy way to process life. Many of us (me included) don’t cry enough.

    Another thought: I want to weep for the things that make God weep.

    I long for the day when there is peace and unity. I long for the day when I feel no pain. Until then, I think tears may actually be a good thing many times.

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    1. Eileen Post author

      I would agree, Jon. I spent years running away from my emotions. Not healthy at all and just caused more pain.

      Reply

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